Or you want to feel like you have it. Accept how something is, and move on.
Do you actually want to say that anyone in the world “drove you” to do anything—not in your own control? Fighting the world for scraps?
Where does that come from?
Is it low or high esteem?
Is it positive or negative?
Is it oblivion or malice?
Can I really base my feelings and judgements of the world on just my perspectives?
(as if I’m more—or different—or anything other than what I am. Which is: an overgrown bacteria with the power to conjure itself some feelings)
Whatever it is, quit dragging it out all the time, when you know you already understand it intellectually. I guess you also want to feel the depths of hurt or misery until you don’t anymore, and then walk away from drama in your life.
I guess even that, is what it is.
But if you’re going to indulge in the melancholy and sadness of things, shouldn’t you find a way to enjoy even that? I mean, you’re indulging in it as it is, why not profit from it somehow?
Glean some wisdom, enjoy the richness (even when painful and blegh).
Marvel at what life is. What yours is.
You’re having as many experiences as possible for the sake of it, for the experience, for the speck of consciousness that you are to say it had an enjoyable time in the physical experience of this lifetime. Rediscovering itself through the biological world.
Be free. Love freely, and out loud.
It doesn’t have to be shown exactly the same way. If at all. Even if it isn’t mutual or to the same degrees, enjoy feeling and giving love, and not losing a single thing for it.
You’re feeling it yourself, and you can only enrich. Others can feel the benefit of your peace.
Ultimately that’s really all you can do. Actualize it, even if at first it’s a lie. Feel love and joy, and more of it will bond to you. However that means.
Maybe we’re all learning. We do what we need to do, to do our own thing, go on our own journey.
And the best thing we could do for ourselves and for anyone else, is to let them be.
Don’t take personally what others want to do in their life—regardless of your inclusion in it. It’s not about you.
Others are also learning, and suffering, and backsliding, and hopefully feeling happy as often as possible. Any wish or expectation for them to feel anything other than that—to change their lives for you, or compromise, or give things up—especially if it was a thing you admired in them to begin with—why when you have closer access to them do you need to assert some type of control over the situation? You end up sabotaging everything slowly so that you don’t have to be the one that’s most exposed in the situation. And for what?
You feel how you feel. You love how you love. You hurt how you hurt.
All I can do is get through it to get through it, and take a lesson from everything I experience.
The only true loss of any experience is not having enjoyed the experience as I wanted, or worse, not having learned anything from it.
I can’t imagine that’s possible in an absolute sense, but I just think that for all the suffering and doom, that we could at least take something away from it.
Also, generally, you’re not meant to take lessons personally (while simultaneously acquiring yourself some new enemies). People and situations are only telling and showing you to go in a new direction. Don’t try to “change” the frustration to make it more palatable. Avoid it entirely.
Things in the real world will push you hard enough if you resist…
Example: if a situation calls for you to change, then take all annoyances and inconveniences as redirects. Don’t now hatch a new hatred (again) to plan a demise for. To seethe in it.
Just move on.
Focus all of your attention on what you actually want to do. Stop rationalizing at some point and just accept it without further need to “understand” the whyyy (you already know the why, just accept it).
That’s wasting even more energy on your hatreds. Instead of taking away the attention and energy and direct it at my one true goal(s): freedom + fun + peace in all ways. Personally, privately, commercially, publicly.
Why are you making it harder on yourself and on others? You should be making it easier on yourself and helping/guiding others to make it easier on themselves.
Be free. Think fondly when you want to demonize. (instead of, and as a first instinct)
Everyone is how they are because of their unique challenges. Let them live and enjoy.
I don’t want to meet people as projects. I want to meet them as friends.
Do you need to keep thinking until you have cLoSurE? Or is this just delaying the letting go?
Free your mind. Free yourself. Itself.
