Peace
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Life would be easier if I knew the deadline
It would almost make it easier live. To have somewhat of a “deadline” to anticipate in which you have to fit in every activity you want before you die. It would be easier than the blindness of going through life knowing it could happen however and whenever. With something terminal–besides…
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Nature, cannabis, people
The three things I consider when moving anywhere… That the natural environment is healing to me, it’s easy to acquire top shelf weedsies, and the overall vibe of the population there. I need to be by the ocean, and I need lush greenery. The ganj isn’t required necessarily, but the…
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Sex
It’s 7:33 in the morning, and I’ve already done four of my favorite things: slept, had sex, showered, and smoked. And we’re about to eat. That’s top five activities. The day has started perfectly. I’ve done everything I love. My day is complete. I don’t have to do anything else.…
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Why are you making it harder on yourself?
You should be making it easier on yourself and helping/guiding others to make it easier on themselves. Be free. Think fondly when you want to demonize. (instead of, and as a first instinct) Everyone is how they are because of their unique challenges. Let them live and enjoy. I don’t…
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This too shall pass
The good and the bad, the struggle and the ease. For better or better or worse or worse, it will all pass. There’s relief in that. You may feel down and desperate, and this too shall pass. You may feel high and floating and joyful, and that too shall pass.…
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If you’re asking “why,” it’s because you want to control.
Or you want to feel like you have it. Accept how something is, and move on. Do you actually want to say that anyone in the world “drove you” to do anything—not in your own control? Fighting the world for scraps? Where does that come from? Is it low or…
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Desperate for freedom
I’ve failed you. I’m still lost. I don’t really know who I am without you. I keep thinking—I keep deluding myself—that somehow I’ve processed everything. But really, I’ve only been taking advantage of my lack of object permanence. If you don’t see someone, or something often, you get used to…
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There is no tomorrow
A while ago, I had a couple days of feeling intense types of ways. Anything and everything I was trying to do was just not working out. Obstacle, inconvenience, and challenge after infuriating challenge—with seemingly no way else that things could possibly get resolved. As I was taking a walk and fuming…
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Everyone is going to break your trust
Not everyone necessarily because they mean to, but because sometimes we really can never know another person’s feelings, thoughts, or expectations of us. And maybe you had expectations that you didn’t communicate. So, it’s not that they broke your trust. They broke the illusion of what you thought you had…
